A letter from Sep 10, 2024

Dear FutureMe, it's my 21 birthday and it was terrible, a fight with my parents making me question myself, childhood and the action leded to my current self, and it all made sense, I got accepted in the engineering schools some how I'm not really happy about it, leaving my comfort zone, there was a moment where I thought I did my dream then I realized it was never mine, I never had a dream job or a carrier and it was all a placeholder to others questions, I realized today that there is no different from dieing naturally and ******* my self I'm ****** in both so it was a bit strange, I did some rearrangement mostly cutting the few relationships i had, and I found this contractual my parents ideas and mine and how somehow they make an infinite loop I don't know how to describe it. But at the end it was a miserable day I hated so I hope u won't read this mail. Hope you are dead.