A letter from Sep 07, 2024

Dear FutureMe, it is Sep 7th 2024, at 2:30 in the morning. I just listened to Minecraft music and reminisced about our childhood, at first I felt sadness, longing to go back to our old house, even crying at how I didn't have what I used to. I cried about missing Kai, and all the things we did together, and how he's barely in my life anymore. I cried out of fear of getting older. I cried over how I'll lose my cat one day, I cried over every single thing I have lost, that I maight never get back. But you know what? I don't need them back, because at some point in time, I did have those things, and I have the memories to keep them. So regardless if I can't have them again, I'm just glad I have those memories to begin with. They are so important to me, and they helped me realize what a beautiful life I have led so far. I mean, I'm only 16, nearing 17, I still have so much left to go but... I wanna make sure you know that even if we die today, that we've led such an amazing life, we've had so many experiences, and conversations with the ones we love. I never want to forget those, because that's what makes me appreciate what I have now, what I used to have, and what I'll have in the future, even if it means I must lose something in turn for it. Remember that the only true person that can judge you, is yourself. So here I am saying that you're doing good, it could be hard right now, but I'm so proud that we've made it this far, don't give up now, think about all the wonderful memories that still need to be made. Despite the loses that may occur, they will forever be stored away and kept within ourselves, we've never truly lost anything. If you're feeling lonely, remember the nights we stayed up talking with Kai, or Dad, the countless hours we spent talking about nonsense. If you feel unloved, remember everytime Mom or Eva said they loved you for doing something small, or even just being there. If you feel yourself falling into a dark place, remember how scared she was, how she just wanted to disappear, and then the relief she felt when that feeling finally went away. You're not weak, you're strong, and beautiful and worthy of *your* love. It doesn't matter who else loves you, because the only person that ever matters in the end, is you, and I Willa always be there for you, even if we fight sometimes. Love. Ann (P.S. if this letter still feels as emotionally invoking as it did today, please re-send it in another year thanks (: lol)