A letter from Sep 04, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Congrats! You're a married man, I know you've come up with something pretty cool for your 1 year wedding anniversary. You did..right? Congrats on being in therapy for 2 years. Doesn't sound real, does it? Probably feels the same to you as going for 1 year does to me, hard to imagine our life without it. Can't wait to find out what you've been working on, I'm sure it'd sound pretty scary to me but to you.. I know you can handle it. Yeah.. I miss Hyda too, I wish she was here. I know it hurts but just remember that we can visit her anytime we want. Close your eyes, and imagine her sitting next to you, she'll always be right there when you need her. Everytime you play your guitar, she's listening to you, proud, always. Kinda weird thinking about Grandma, right? What would she think of 12 year old Nicholas, now someone's husband, a homeowner, an adult. We never talked about what life would be like for me when I'm in my 30s, back then it seemed like it would never happen. Still kinda feels like a dream, life shouldn't be so good, wish I'd known back then how good it would eventually be. We're still not mad at Mom, right? No, she did her best, even if it wasn't good enough. Life wasn't very kind to her either, just remember that's what made her strong, pushing furniture around the house with 1 arm, buying groceries with food stamps, never sure where the money was going to come from. She did what she could with what she had to work with. You have more, more than she ever did. Use what you have and make something out of it. Whatever you want that something to be, you get to decide. Now, write another letter, write one to next year's John and remind him of all this. Remind him of where we came from, and where we're going.