A letter from Sep 04, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Another year passed since i wrote a letter to me on this day in 2023, received in 2024, it says high on hallucinations, couldn't focus on work, and it's the same reality Even today. It's a disorder whoch will follow me for life. But not a complete failure as it says, i am trying semen retention, and just could retent upto two or three days max, but i will keep trying, even this is netter than daily. Also i am working out good, doing three sets of 10 to 20 reps of Pushup, squats and plank for one and a half minute - 3 sets as of yesterday Did some trades past a few months, broke the yearlong habit of avoiding it since 2021 But not much success in trading at all, have nothing else to do. Started Doing some cooking like pasta, fried idli Pure atheist as of today, yesterday and for full lifespan. I am not happy. I have learn to cope with depression amd loneliness, but couldn't figure to get out of it. Struggling daily, each minute But i will succeed, i know, it's just taking a lot of time I wish to say more but it's the same thing pver and over, i want to get out of this situation. Let's keep trying, bye, we will meet next year. I hope i will be more happy than today next year.