A letter from Aug 30, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hi Jessica, I'm currently 19 years old. I'm confused and trying to figure out adulthood. I have a car now, and I'm in college. I'm scared for the future, I'm scared of our future leaders, and the future environment. I'm currently watching Criminal Minds season 10 episode 9 so I'm a little distracted right now. I hope for the better. Jessica, you have to develop better skills in life. I need to stop sleeping so late at night (writing this at 1:50 am btw), I need a better eating schedule and eating habits. I have a gym membership that mommy is currently paying for but I haven't been going that much. I want a better life for myself I want to make better choices that would improve my life. I hope a year from now I'll have my apartment at 20. I know apartment prices are high but maybe I can qualify for section 8 or housing assistance. I love my mom but I don't want to live with her anymore. Our relationship has always been strained but it improved once we moved to Taunton, maybe because I was the only kid she had left living with her. Right now, Kayla and Aiden live with us and it has its benefits and negatives idk. I'm manifesting and praying for better eating habits, a sleeping schedule, clear skin, a healthy body, hobbies, and better friends. Last year I failed my PLB class and it opened up my eyes. College isn't like high school, there are not going to be teachers who will chase you down to submit an assignment If I want to succeed in college I have to put in the effort and get it done. If I want to be a doctor I need a better studying habit than what I currently have. I'm barely learning but I'm still passing which isn't good, the main point is for me to learn. I hope a year from now I'm playing soccer on the team at my school and have a new job that pays me enough. Can you believe my boss is underpaying me, a dollar less than all of the new hires? Maybe I will finally have a boyfriend at the age 20, maybe I won't be scared of speaking with others or commitment. I hope for the future Jessica I know you will accomplish everything you've ever dreamed of and more! Love you be safe <3