A letter from Aug 28, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I don’t want this letter to go to you and I’m almost afraid of what the future holds at this point as i blissfully ignore all signs and just believe that someday I will make it. Just that I will realise that I have made it, With no sense of wanting more or regretting, I want to be liberated with the feeling of this hustle and growth and pain that expectations cause me. I want to be set free for my mind to explore creativity with no intention or execution of “Portfolio” I just want to make this world a better place for my kids. I want to inspire others and bring them hope when life gets them down. I want to let my emotions and feelings and thoughts free of any filter. I want to be human and live every moment to the fullest by being in it completely. I want to feel it all, I want to enjoy being able to feel alive because of it. I want to accept it as myself. I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO THAT. Each day i feel myself growing distance, almost hiding my true self to potray this character I have build named Awani. I don’t know how much longer before I also turn into a meaning less zombie going about her job forgetting life is short and that you only get one chance at this.