A letter from Aug 26, 2024

Dear me, From the past and from the future. Hello! Future me, I hope you're doing alright. Really cause right now, at the moment you're writing this letter, you're dealing with a little problem. Let's get to that later. Past me, you're doing better than before, though. Therapy really helped you out and you're not studying anymore (although I don't feel like that's a good thing and you're thinking of going back to studying). You now work full time doing nails and you've improved a lot, clients really like what you do and you enjoy too, for the most part. You work at a salon with another girl and even if you two couldn't have more different values, you work well together and I think that at least for a while, that's enough. You're very happy not having anything else to do with her and let's keep it like this. Now you're trying to raise money for the surgery expenses! Yeah, they called you and you're currently waiting for the cardiologist to approve you for surgery. I hope things go well now, I'm so nervous (Future, you tell me lol). I'm also trying to renew the house since now it's been three months since your parents and sister moved out and you live there with your other sister. That tarot girl almost got it on point! Things are happening at a slow pace but I hope that when Future us read this letter, the house is on point already :)) Also, remember that boy you met on Tinder, April 1st? Yes, the gemini lol, you're dating him but things are not going well. It's been a week since you two started dating. He asked but didn't promise anything and girrrllll, all he said was kind of a warning, I guess. But what could you do? You like him (yeah, present me still likes his sorry ***) and you wanted to give it a try. We started dating on August 19th. And you haven't talked to him in 4 days? I guess any normal mind would kick his *** but not you. Not now. Maybe future us will be though enough... and talkin about her... Future me, How're you doing? Are you still dating that guy? Is he any better from whatever's bit his asz(just in case the site blocks the word). I know it's though now but I also hope you're doing what's best for you. I know you'd better have him proving to himself that he gotta get propper treatment, instead of leaving him and have his sorry *** thinking he was right. That everyone abandons him because he's not a normal person. I hope this is just a bad phase and you guys get to solve it together. I hope you're still dating him, and got to know him, and you're both happy, more than anything. But I also hope all of this I just wrote is vehemently true. I hope you don't lie to yourself cause you're afraid of being lonely . Cause you're afraid no one would want to be by your side. I hope therapy starts working out for you too ajahahah. I know you love him but no love is worth the suffering and you can't fix anyone but yourself. Love yourself first. That's what some of the others do. Right now you're about to start with yoga again. Do this! It's great for you and never stop again. I'm about to get my boomboom up, do yoga, ignore my imessage and live my live. It's hurting a lot -specially cause you just finished watching the umbrella academy and you always identify with Five (and specifically on this season) so it hurts even more- but you can take it and shake it. I love who you're becoming, so just don't lose yourself. Kinda crying and with a bit of a stomacache... I should really go for that psychiatrist but this is a topic for another letter. Bjos, se cuida>