A letter from Aug 26, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hi Edjean! This is your past self, are you okay now? Are you okay with your family now? Were you still arguing with you brother? Are you still alive? haha kidding. Did you ever go to college? Are you financially stable now? I hope your okay now, because right now your past self is not okay, she’s fighting in her silent battles so I hope your still fighting too. Yesterday I fought again with my family and just like the other days they are still with my kuya, and not with me. It's 3 years na since I’m praying that “ako naman, ako naman sana yung kampihan nila” its always the same scenario after the moment we have an argument they act like nothing happened, they act like I was not hurt by their actions. I hope you will not do it again, you did it twice and hoping that you'll stop yourself from doing it again, just trust the God, he will guide you through yqour journey, so don’t do it again please🥺🥺. ;🧷🧷 Did you able to go to college? I hope so. Unta naka skwela ka kay karon palang daan na g12 paka kaundaong naka tungod sa mga problema especially financial problem. Ga open up pa japon si mama sa imo sa mga problema na iyahang gina keep? Everytime ga open up si mama sa mga problema gahilak jud ka silently kay feel nimo isa ka sa mga burdens sa family, naa pay mga bayronon sa school na daghan tapos ikaw ray wala trabaho sa balay, si papa tigulang na dili na kayo ka lihok tungod sa iyahang mga sakit sa lawas. Padayon sa kibahuhi ha? bahalag unsa pana ka lisod padayon lang jud, kay ga promise ka sa ila na mo dato ka, ayaw jud pag minyo og sayo kay na hahahaha. I also hope that you'll let that silent jealousy in your heart to that one cousin of yours because of your mother's treatment. If naka skwela ka, sa sa BukSu Libona ra noh? diya raman gud ka gusto pa eskwelahon. Friends pa japon mo nila Airish, Gian, Jecelle, Phoebe Khate, Ethiel, Jocel, Richele, Kairos, Dion, Jaynieyang? Tubaga ni please if mabasa ni nimo in the future HAHAHHAHAH. Stay strong sa bond ninyo. Wala man kunohay kay dream university but unta maka sulod kag USTP kay gusto ka maka uban japon sila riri, gigi, og elle. But even what ever happens in this family I will always love them, I am so thankful of their helps to me everytime I needed them, its just that there's always a sad moments and not always a happy moments. While ginasulat ko ni nihilak nasad ko☹️☹️ ka tahilak ba nako. I hope in the future dili nako tahilak hahahah. — Edjean (2024)