A letter from Aug 20, 2024

Dear FutureMe, This is past you, probably just gonna fill in a status thing of how we are. Mentally we're still suffering but we're trying to improve on the anger issues and emotional stability and trauma and opening up but Garry thinks that we're doing great. Silent has been gone for one year. After that loss and failing to make new friends and find a connection I've decided not to build friendships. If a 13 year connection can suddenly be severed like it meant nothing then I'm not doing this anymore. I can't be good enough for anyone. I'm not meant to belong or have a people. And it's better to be safe than sorry, so I won't have friendships anymore. I'll just stay home and sleep. Your family still ******* hates you as well and treats you like absolute **** but that's never been anything new. Patti won't talk to us anymore and no one does either and I'm tired of being left out of everything and ignored and chastised and mistreated. I came to the conclusion that I don't have family either. The in laws never talk to me or include me either, but somehow my husband stays duped into believing that they do care. You've gotten married on August 6th, 2023. You've got a cat named Florence that you adopted a year or two ago. Her birthday is November 25th, 2021. These two are the only ones that you have left. It is so nice to have a soulmate. I am constantly afraid that one day he will give up and leave just like Silent did. Silent was the most loyal friend I've ever known, and Garry's history of cheating on me and keeping secrets doesn't help my anxiety and distrust I have with people and the tendency I get where everything in my life goes terribly wrong. But I'm also coming to a conclusion that I can live through life because I am so loved by Garry and I am his soulmate and we can never be apart. I'm trying to let that past mistake of his go but I'm terrified of letting my guard down and then being wrong about trusting him and getting hurt again. But he wouldn't do that to me, right? I'll see this letter next year and add on whatever's new. Hopefully I will be a Canadian resident living with my husband.