A letter from Aug 20, 2024

Hey! My well-wisher, I genuinely love you! wish you a very Happy birthday! I know everything right now is so freakin difficult with me, like no job no source of income, lack of vision for the future, absolutely no will or point to live. But you are a year older and wiser I know you did something right I know your problem-solving skills, I maybe engulfed with depressing grey clouds which is making it difficult to see the light or the right path but your sunshine is something that can hide in those grey clouds but will never fade. I look at my journal and realize that I have always found a way, the right path and the light on the most gloomiest days, this time it is taking a bit long to find it, I am lost, deep down lost seems like a maze that is so difficult to get through that I consider giving up now and then but that single ray of hope that I have always found a way and will again find it. I just beg the universe to god on an everyday basis to give me strength to not give up. I just show my genuine gratitude that I have such supportive Parents and my cute little dog who loves me dearly and I love them too. but rest everything is so messy. I just want to get better and hear something about your triumph story on this situation super soon. I just sometimes wish I never had this much big dreams as a kid. It is very difficult to give answers to my childhood self. I just can't keep up with her dreams and hurts a lot. I believe in you. I'll try to keep going. I love you. You have all the right to be happy and have great life and you will have all the happiness with you always.