A letter from Aug 19, 2024

Dear FutureMe, i keep feeling terrible at night and i cant convince nyself to go to sleep so i end up staying up till two but still im too mmuch of a coward to stay thw night with Time and give in to ***** for a few hours im scared of dying and i feel so alone and i feel so empty and full of... some emotion idk how to describe. I wish i knew how to .. be normal and feel good about things but i just end up distracting myself from every-*******-thing. end up dissociating in bed for hours unable to think and no one knows - best regards, i love you cole