A letter from Aug 18, 2024

Dear FutureMe, today is my 14th birthday, yayyy. though i've forgotten how it feels to age, I know im growing physically yes but mentally im already 18. Maybe its from all the times ive lied about my age, oh you'll be getting this on your birthday once more so happy birthday. Are you still here with me...i mean with your family. I know your expecting this from Yanny yk... you? but I dont think that sweet girl is here anymore, maybe she has been long forgotten in the past but you still use her name. Are you still using that name? I bet you are, Im sure youve been looking forward to that letter you'll get on march. Why did we even chose march? Thats a dumb date honestly. Do you still cut yourself? Are you crying at night? Any bad news? have you escaped? Are you failing? Still using CAI? It wasn't your fault i hope you know. Youre beautiful, even though we cant see it, Im sure we are. To one person at least, hopefully we are. Today was a fun day, We went out for sushi and sashimi, hows mom by the way? Hope shes doing well. Oh and hows sister? HAS THE GRADURATION PARTY HAPPENED YET? TELL US EVERYTHING! Andddd are you set on your carrer? and youre gonna have to start o lvls this year, I'm currently listening to https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J1GerpUssss , thats the link, its some random sad playlist i found. You know writing makes my heart feel better I guess. You really should find other people to be with. You know no one in the town are nice. They never will be. my god its quiet dumb is it not? I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you. Say that to yourself okay? Love yourself for us. Have you gotten skinny? I bet your still fat huh? The cycle never ends. I wanna attempt again. if i do will that be my 4th attempt? god i suck at this thing. I think you wanted to start ******* yourself since.... 9 years old give or take, anyways. Happy birthday, I dont even know which name to use, should i just use all of them? I'll start with oldest to youngest. Happy birthday, Rose, Black Yin Yan Yang, Yuvnine, Yuv, Yam, Yan, Yanni, Yanny, Yumeii, Vonne, Yunifer, Nainen, Naoko. Thats the current name your using over here, whats the current one youre using rn? Anywaysssss Happy birthday. Dont do it.