A letter from Aug 18, 2024

Heyy!! Writing this instead of sleeping lol. I'm excited to see a letter I wrote to myself 2 years ago in two months🫣🫣 hoping my younger self who was struggling so bad doesn't break my heart with what they wrote and asked. Besides that, how are you!! I hope we're doing good as we just got out of a rough patch like 5 months ago, battling depression and unspecified mood disorder(?🤨). Did we enjoy hiking Mt. Washington? How are Chino and Oka, will we still see them or did something happen?.. How is Emily, did she change her mind about not going to college or at least start working out😫? And is mama/papa doing okay? Any fights recently.. any deaths? Did we relapse since cutting on our foot for the first time so no one would see it? Have our other self-harm scars faded? Can't believe we were suffering at 10 to 15, crazy. We're strong💪 I hope we've been getting good grades, if not, I hope we enjoy the air force😭 or a whole different country🙄 DO WE STILL LIKE OW2😱 AND OMG DO WE HAVE A S/O? I hope you're over Daylon still! I've just about 80% forgotten about him, I hope he never 70% forgets me though🤭 I'm not saltyyy, just petty. I hope we haven't been touched or anything of the sort, I've held a pretty good streak of avoiding it- I think? I bet I wouldn't even remember if it happened to me😭 Any glow up😄 We're aren't ugly atm, but anything helps! It could even be a wardrobe glow up, we dress very comfy casual rn. Are we still snatched 5'3 ~140lbs? If not it's fine, I just hope we've gotten over the whole "my body is everything, if it's ugly I'm ugly" because that isn't true, but for some reason I think it is(internally). How's Brianna, did we ever fall out like I thought we would've? Do we workout regularly😱 currently we might do 1 active thing a week, it varys though. We have 2 piercings- belly button and ears.. anything neeew🤭. I'm feeling pretty tired now at 1 AM, I go to Washington in 2 days. I should sleep, and I'll try! Though there's so many questions and stuff I know I want to ask and tell you but I frankly can't remember them. I hope we sleep well ❤️ I love you, queen.