A letter from Aug 16, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I blocked him it was a very hard decision but i had to so i can stop communicating and forcing myself thoughts i still think about the memories,the good ones and the bad ones we could have made a perfect match but God said he not for me the earlier the better I realize it.. the last time we had *** was the day i went to camp june 28 2024😂i bet he doesn’t even remember but i still have it stuck in my head..i will miss him his touch too he plainly told me i should date anyone and he can’t be single forever he will be with someone but not me he will be with his ex but not me..i am nothing he made me feel less I love him but i know i can’t have him.. I am moving on i have started the no contact i guess it is for the best we won’t reach out to each other no more we won’t tell each other how we love each other even though he never loved me.. I guess it is a final Good bye now to my first love ..lmao i hope when i read this i smile and not cry..daddy is even very sick and mummy is in the hospital probably going for ****** surgery i just pray nothing happens to them both for i have dreamt about it.. Dear future me i am staying strong for u i hope you already forgot about him and moved on… The only thing left now are memories the rest are broken part of me💔💔