A letter from Aug 16, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I have scheduled this letter for my 18th birthday, when I will finally be an adult. It's something I've been looking forward to, however I also feel I have not done enough with my childhood, and that once I reach this point there is not much turning back or much to look forward to, but nonetheless I am still positive. Currently I am feeling like my entire world is crashing in on me, stressful things haven't happened for months but suddenly re-emerged today, and every single time I find myself coming back to this letter to write something new, Why? Why do I always have to stress and obsess about the little things in my life, I should really just leave all the group chats, drop everyone who stresses me out, but I cant... I don't know why I cant. Summer is going to end soon, which is fine, summer comes to an end eventually and the school year will begin, in fact one year from now I will in grade 11, insane to think about. Another two years and I will be graduated, completely forgotten about this letter and all my past stress, new things will come into my life hopefully good, and I will surround myself with different friends and more positive people. I will probably receive this message and regret making it public in the first place, but I need to get this off my head tonight. Thank you and see you in two years.