A letter from Aug 15, 2024

Dear 18 year old cameron, i hope our year was good, i bet gr 12 was hard lol but it's over now. it prob feels weird to be 18 now, i mean i don't even feel 17. i wonder how much you cried today lmaooo. growing up is scary, i'm not ready to be 18, i hope we're doing better tho. i mean i'm not doing HORRIBLE rn, it's actually a better summer cus of t, hoping we can get top surgery soon when you get thisssss. i can't even imagine being an adult omg, it's so weird that's it's only a year away, years go by so fast. anyway i don't totally know why i'm writing this, or what to even say lol. ig i'm trying to be optimistic and i'm trying to cope with the fear of growing up and grieving my childhood. anyway this year i'm gonna cherish, cus it's essentially my last yr of childhood. i hope i did well, or at least okay at that. what i want to say to you is that as scary as it is to grow up, you--or we-- have to remember that's it's completely okay to be a kid sometimes. it's okay to play, it's okay to sleep with a stuffy, it's okay to go on the swings, colour, have fun with stickers, just be a kid and not worry about anything else. i'm gonna try to remember that this year and i want you to remember that too. the little kid is still in there, and always will be, and that's okay. i love him no matter what. anyway, i have no idea what's gonna happen in this next yr, idk what i'll feel like in a year from now, but i do just want to remind you that it will be okay, it's scary, it's hard, but things will work out, and we've got this. love, 17 year old cam