A letter from Aug 09, 2024

Dear FutureMe, It's me the you who recently turned 31. Happy 32nd Birthday to you!! Well, doing this last time for 31 me was fun and surprisingly, I felt like time went by too quickly! Currently, I live with Edwin in my small 1 room and 1 studio apartment in z14. Life is good, glad to have healthy and loving parents, beautiful Gatsby, good friends, a great loving family and a fantastic imperfectly perfect boyfriend by my side. I spent my birthday going to Tiffany Plaza and eating lunch Carpaccio with my mom and Carlitos at Don Emiliano. I truly cherish and appreciate this bday dates with my parents. I will meet with my dad next week to have dinner as well for my birthday. I had originally started writing this letter on the day after our birthday but then got busy (Work keeps me super busy + Vale and Bryan are visiting and we had an awesome weekend getaway at Antigua with Edwin, Carlitos, mom, Vale and Bryan) and so right now, I'm seating outside the operations room where Edwin is starting to get treated. Hoping everything goes well! But anyway, I realized that reminding future us of how things are now (for you a year ago) brings a greater value than perhaps asking questions that I will have clear answers by the time you read this. Today I'm grateful for the beautiful life I get to live, my parents are alive and well, I have a great boyfriend who is extremely caring and compliments my life so perfectly, he's my best friend and partner in so many ways. We live together in the small apartment in z14. He loves me unconditionally and is always providing words of encouragement as I work hard everyday in becoming the best version of myself I can be. We try to workout together though lately the healthy lifestyle has been a challenge I've gained weight and I'm at this point where I really feel I need to do something before I keep gaining more and being back at 160(currently 150) anyway I've been trying my best to keep things in balance and lose weight for a while but I think perhaps work and being consumed so much by stress and lack of movement (for seating so many hours working or organizing myself or getting other errands done) Not an excuse but what I can tell you is that im trying my best and I won't give up. I hope that a year from now I've been able to lose some of this weight if I haven't as long as you are never giving up and doing your best effort it's ok you deserve to be loved, every version of you (including this one) but it's a process changing habits permanently to be able to be where I was. I ideally would like to weight 130 but going back to 140 would be great at this point, it feels more me. A fitter, stronger, leaner, balanced me. Getting there might not be easy but I hope to find the right path to get me there. Anyway, that's been the main thing bugging me in the last year and months. Aside from that I think I try to keep as much as time allows me good friendships and dedicate quality time when possible to those I love. A year from now, I hope to be closer way closer to the goal of moving abroad (at least taking many steps in making that a possibility) hoping to formalize my relationship with Edwin as we prepare for our future together abroad, having a better relationship and balance with work and my personal life as well as having more time to invest in myself physically, emotionally and spiritually. Also getting more clarity in the steps related to my career though I trust soon enough I will gain more clarity on this. I trust that you are doing your best in working towards your goals and i'm already proud of you! Thank you for everything you've done for us. I love you!! Always and Always Sincerely. 31 one year old you :)