A letter from Aug 14, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hi! This is newly 19-year-old you, literally just turned a year older yesterday. How are you? Have you moved out? I sure ******* hope so. Because by the time you receive this you’ll be 20. Crazy, it sounds weird and hard to imagine I’ll be 20. In my head, we’ll forever be teenagers. It’s my last year as a teen, idk what to do, idk what the future awaits. I’m ngl it was underwhelming, didn’t feel like a special day at all, perhaps it was because 18 was so special. I also said this to Lady and Jude, apparently it’s a canon 19th experience lol. I’m currently reading Normal People. Do you still read books? I’m sure you do, or you probably stopped but will eventually pick up on it once you get in the mood. I know you. I really want to move out. I want a peace of mind. I want my own space. I want to stop walking on eggshells. I want to have my own time. These four walls truly is sucking the soul out of me. I’ve been really insecure lately, I noticed I have gained so much weight compared to when I was 17. I don’t know if its the stress, hormones, *******, or what. Btw, I’m (kinda) dating someone. No labels tho lol literally dating in the sense that we went on four dates. It was fun, but he already left for the UK, he’s currently on a trip to China and Japan. He’s coming back in Sydney on the 24th for a stopover before he goes back to the UK. I’m gonna be honest, I’m not that into him. I just did it for the plot xx (TANGINA KO?) Buuuut, of course I’m still curious how it will go. We’ll probably chat every now and then still, but distance is a ************ and it will probably turn us into strangers. Especially since we’re not even that close yet. It was fun, though. It made me realise maybe I don’t actually have attachment issues ?? Or maybe I just don’t like him enough for me to be attached and get sad about him leaving. Anyway, I’m curious how your love life is turning out. PUHLEASE try to kiss someone. Omg wait I’m also curious if you lost your viriginity??? If you did, I HOPE TO ******* GOD it is to someone worth it and not some random ******* stranger ***** I’m gonna choke you fr, it better be someone you’re in a relationship with! Also, how is the visas and **** going? You’re doing the Bachelors in ECT now, is the college good? Are you learning anything? Is it harddd?? I doubt lol. But yeah, take care of yourself. Don’t forget to be happy and enjoy life. You deserve it. From the person who roots for you the most, me :)