A letter from Aug 14, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Today I am in the pits, as per every financial year since I entered this dump of a workplace. I am so tired and just over this job. I have considered quitting but I am just halfway through the loan. So I have 1.5 years left in this dump if I do not find another job. Just because someone is an unmarried first born daughter who lives at home, it doesn't mean they have money to spare or sugar daddies that fund their lifestyle. it is soooooo hard and I really want to leave home and just be in my own space that's decorated how I want but I cannot afford it. So much debt. Investment club debt, life assurance debt, car tickets - 3 to be precise from 2019 and the bank loan to build the rentals that are not doing half the income you had projected. Meaning between all that debt, I need to cut some things off. I want to leave the investment club but I need to get up to date with my payments so that I can leave with the money I put in. I can't even sleep or settle into a relationship in good faith with all this baggage. I need to get more gigs and a better paying job. Which brings me to some lessons; 1. DO NOT and I repeat never take a government job again unless it's a short term consultancy gig. You always knew you were not cut out for all this bureacracy and *** licking and yet you took this low paying job against your instincts and better judgement. Now here you are constantly depressed, overworked and underested. Paid way below your education and experience. 2. NEVER take a job that pays less than your old job. No one is worth it. No amount of learning and exposure is worth it. 3. NEVER take a position lower than your old position. It looks bad on the CV. Now I am here underlooked and underpaid. 4. NEVER take career advice from married women - you are an unmarried first born daughter of 8 kids (of mum and dad) and atleast 5 other kids from your father's concubines. Those married women whose husbands have cushy jobs have a fall back income. YOU DON'T. 5. YOU ARE ON YOUR OWN. NO ONE IS COMING TO SAVE YOU. BE SELFISH For context. It is August and you are in Uganda. Keep at it with the French lessons. Get back into data science. Do not listen to naysayers. It is application season. We failed a lot last season. But hang in there. Keep at it. Leave that dump. Apply for the PhD and Masters and jobs. You need to leave that place. Love You Love, You