A letter from Aug 10, 2024

Dear Me, As I write this, it is 5:45pm on the day of your first LSAT attempt. Test is at 8:30pm. The last week has been an anxiety-riddled, rainy mess. But, the day has come. Oddly, I feel a sense of calmness (somewhat)- more than I’ve felt all week. I think it’s because deep down I know that it is completely out of my hands from here and all that’s left to do is to get on there and do my **** best. The lack of preparation/studying and the time constraints are the most nerve wracking elements. But just the fact that I am facing my fear of this test is a HUGE step for me. I don’t know that it will go well. That’s just me being the realist I am. But what if it does go well? This is a big step in the direction of my career goals and dreams. I hope when you’re reading this a year from now, you are over this chapter of LSAT test taking and you’re solidified with what law school you’re attending, and when. I hope you got a MASSIVE financial aid package and you’re on track to achieving your dreams. I’m so proud of us today for taking this step forward and I hope over the last year, you’ve carried that momentum through with the ferocity and drive I know you have within you. If you ever find yourself feeling like you are doing this alone, this past week has proved that you are not. Everyone has reached out with prayers, words of support and encouragement with respect to your test today. Mom, Mo, Dwight, the Hauptman’s, your gamer friends, everyone has expressed their belief in your success and is working to manifest this for you; which is the sweetest sentiment. But it’s up to you to take it from there, to do the work that’s required and manifest this FOR YOURSELF. Just know that even if you feel alone, your support system is silently rooting for you to win. I love you. I’m so proud of you already; even though I don’t know how we’ll do on this test. But it doesn’t matter because I know that I am proud of you because you are me. And I’m so proud of me, I hope you look back and are proud of us too. Keep kicking *** Nik. You owe it to yourself. Don’t stop until you have an ESQ. after that name!! Love always, 25 year old You