A letter from Aug 09, 2024

Dear me, I sure hope you didn't forget about the Egham experience yet. I'm still here, sitting behind a desk, listening to Hozier with one ear and to Alia's keyboard with the other, thinking about how to make this poetic enough that you read it. We've had lots of ups and downs these years, and while this year we learnt to live in our city, I've been discovering how to be brave when our friends aren't around. Yes I do miss them very much, but I've done so many things here that I would have never even dreamt of up until now. I went on stage to sing in front of a whole crowd, surrounded by people I'd only known less than a week, I spoke english with native speakers, dressed exactly how I wanted to and was able to regulate a panic attack without anyone helping me. I was able to help someone, to present a project, to not panic in front of small things. I finally ate how much I wanted and needed without feeling bad, I dressed however I felt like and didn't feel ashamed after saying certain things out of place. There is going to be so much I'll bring back home, and I can't wait to show my friends all about it. I kinda feel like someone right now. I feel like me, even somewhere else. That's good isn't it? I'll keep on doing what I love without it feeling like it's useless, I'll keep loving as much as I've always been, I just have a greater number if people to gift love to. I hope you and the group stayed in touch. Have you ever gone out together? Do you still talk to everyone or just some? Did Jacopo actually hate the lot of you? Are Luca and Giacomo in a situationship or is it just a joke now? Are you keeping the promise I made earlier? Are you ok? Did the depression come back? It's no biggie if it did. It'll all be fine like it always has been. You know you need to push through and believe. Eventually, you'll be happy again :). I know I'm talking to myself in the future, but I'm the only person who knows how much you've suffered and how much you've grown and how much you've got to give. Not only to others but yourself. Myself. How much I'm worth. So, how's your love life? Are you single and happy? Do you have a crush? Situationship? Boyfriend?? Do you miss Enrico? I do. It's hard not to love your soulmate. SE NON LO FATE PIÙ SCRIVI SUL GRUPPO EGHAM!!! I love you :)