A letter from Aug 06, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I wonder what it's like. Everything is going on too fast and I wish I could enjoy my kid and teen years. Do we finally figure out how to be ourselves? Do we have a group of friends that we finally feel comfortable in? Are we able to feel happy and bubbly even when we aren't with people? Mom is going to register me to another therapist, can the new therapist finally help me fix myself? I have so many questions I wish I had answers to right now. Do we get tested for ADHD or Autism? Do we feel comfortable in all the clothes that we have in our room? Can we handle loud noises? What's our music taste like? Did we ever graduate high school? Did we go to collage or university? Do we have friends? What's mom like? Did she stop getting mad at us for tiny things? What about grandma and grandpa? Are they still there? What are they like? Everything is happening so fast I wish time could just stop for a moment. I haven't been getting enough sleep lately either, I can barely breathe sometimes because I sleep on my arms when it comes to desks. What about Charlie? Are we still friends with them? Do they still talk to me? I don't know what to do, I feel tired and want to know the answers right now, I just feel really stressed. I don't think a 16 year old should feel as stressed as I do, I don't even celebrate my birthday as much as I did before. I didn't even celebrate my 16th one because everyone was busy. Do we celebrate in the future? I guess it won't be that long to find out, I just have to survive until then. Best regards, Aya.