A letter from Jul 31, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I am standing on a treashold. Telling my lover go, telling my inner lover to go? That's what my mind is generating. My mind is telling me that love is what we receive by giving. We get us much as we give. Everywhere. And loving another is one expecting the love that already surrounds them. Actually let love in. That's more of the question, the practice, rather then finding someone who we will love.Can we love ourselves enough to accept the love that is. Only through loving us deeper and deeper, loving oneself, we can accept the love that is around us. that just is. In this relationship I forgot how to love myself. How to love myself. How loving myself means going out and sitting under the tree by my self and writing love letters to the clouds and trees. How loving myself is indulging in my creative process, letting it flow. And more, and more of activities that I do by myself. Not with others, not with my loved one. And through that I can come to another person. Feeling loved. Other person cannot make me feel loved. Only I can accept it. Love to you, to accept it, Esmīlu