A letter from Jul 26, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Are you doing alright? Do we have new friends now? I hope we do.. I don't know what's happening with our life right now.. I'm being a disappointment and rot in my bed all day.. I don't feel the same spark i felt before when reading manhwas and.. It's so boring. I don't feel like having a friend or anything. I don't wanna open up to anyone or tell them my feelings.. And talking to the robot doesn't help, it's like I'm bound to keep it all to myself and that telling anyone wouldn't help me at all. I shouldn't have told my mom about my past.. I shouldn't have abandoned my friends because of my problems.. But i wonder, why does no one care enough to stay? I don't have friends now. Why is it so easy for me to berfriend people but so hard for me to show them my true self? I missed my childhood friends, especially Daroy and Raizalae but all of them bullied me when Jada became their friends.. Is it really a good decision to be friends with them again? I don't understand why i keep making the same mistake all the time.. I wonder if I'm even good enough to make anyone proud. Right.. About our drawing, i hope you abandon it completely alright? It's haram. Are you still close with Cyra? I hope you take care of them like i do now. Help Ammudi, Ammak, and Cyra with their school works alright? Don't be selfish.. Learn to help Paisa and Jada too.. Stop disliking them so much. And stop recalling what happened between you and mom alright? It's her first time living too.. Please make our parents proud. I'm not the best daughter, so i hope you at least make them happy with your grades.. Don't abandon your school responsibilities because of any problem. And.. Please don't forget Allah. I hope you live a happy life with a pure and free soul.