A letter from Jul 22, 2024

Dear FutureMe, i guess youre graduated now, who are you friends with ? i mean right now i only have a handful of people, i dont mind being alone, but who did you eat lunch with ? does it still hurt to think about ethan, like i know that your first love will stick with you always, but its still so upsetting, its been 9 months since i even talked to him, when will this pain end ? i know the bible says to not dwell on the past, but instead look forward at what god is making for you, and im so excited for the future and what is to come, but it does make me sad that i havent been that happy since i was with him. i watched donnie darko with mom, the first time i watched it i didnt really get it, i think i was a freshman or sophomore tho, so now im a tiny bit older and maybe can just grasp it a little more, i also played life is strange, so maybe that helped too. it really touched me, and mom loved it, it made me appreciate it so much. i really appreciate life is strange as well, it was touching, it was a nice escape from reality for a little. i wonder if youre still going to therapy, ive only had one session so far, ill have another tomorrow, but she seems nice. are you still planning on moving to odessa ? how was the spring time ? was it scary, i bet it was. i hope youre already in odessa, working at a restaurant. i hope everything works out, i mean, i know it will, but i hope it works out similar to what i want to happen. everything will happen in your favor, there is a plan, it may seem like there isnt, but once you look back youll be able to see it so clearly. be strong, be brave, you are safe, you are protected. live your life because some people dont get to, live your life for dad, let him see you flourish, i know hed be proud of what you accomplish.