A letter from Jul 21, 2024

Hey Mom, this is a year ago Teagan, the date is July 21, 12am, I haven't went to bed yet. It's my 17th birthday soon, I'm scared to grow up, I don't even want to think of it. I'm scared to think you and me can't live forever. It's okay, it's just life. The thought of *****, will always scare me. But this is a little too dark so let's be more sad but not too sad. 2021-2024 made me realize a lot. You really can't trust anyone. It's kind of hard being wiser then your own father, even most adults. Life was rough, soooo rough during this time. Still is now, we aren't able to fill the car with groceries like we used to do. And grandpa and grandma still haven't moved out here yet. We are still in this smaller house. It's kinda scary going outside alone, these people in this area, how do I know I won't be kidnapped or something?? It's scary to be honest. I mean, I guess that's something you always have to worry about, when being a young, pretty, girl. The time that I am writing this, Stray Kids literally came out with 'Chk Chk Boom' 2 days ago and the US tour dates and places haven't been released yet. I wish we would have gone, or possibly we did. I'm not sure, as of right now, we have no money to just go do something like that. I'm just always scared that after millitary, they will release one album and just not come back again. That industry is so tough. They just annoyed they are renewing there contract, but they didn't say for how long. Most likely 2 years. So that will give me til 2027 to see them but I don't have faith in that either. I just really wish I could have saw them (saying that because I have no hope that we will go) Also the BTS concert, did we get tickets? I hope so, I've been waiting for them so long. Too long. As of now, still only Jin has came back. I hope we could go, but also probably not. It will be far too expensive, my dream is just to see them once in my life, since they inspired me to keep going for so long. They were one of my last hopes. But the only other thing, was you. You kept me going. Thank you for everything. I love you a lot mom. I know that everything said is all over the place but it's kinds writing my thoughts out as I think or whatever.