A letter from Jul 20, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hi, I just got a letter from January 2022, it was interesting to say the least. She said if I hadn’t lost my virginity I was a looser, that she wasn’t bi and told me about her scathing email to uncle Chad. I’m on a flight to Madison rn and thought in might be a cool time to right another letter, one with just a little more maturity and fewer grammar mistakes. Speaking of maturity it’s funny how much I changed in two years I am about the same distance in age now to you that past Annika was to me. It made me think about the schools dynamic, the difference in maturity between the terms and the seconds. This year has been tough, one of the reasons is the high expectations I put onto myself for this year, it was supposed to be the best year ever were we partied nonstop and created strong big groups of friends. And don’t get me wrong I am soooooo great full for the friendships I have and now I realize how lucky I am, I realized trought the many conversations I have had with David and Enzo and the ones that Uma has with Raphael that not only is « mapha » super toxic but so is the Lea S group David talked badly about his friends and so did Raphael but not only that they exposed the times where the girls also talked about each other. Of course they aren’t always the most trustworthy but either way I just realized that the sadness I felt after the friend breakup with Valen about how we didn’t have any friends in our year and how they always went out and they loved each other and they were living the second life, was not real. They went out once without us and apparently it sucked. I think I realized that thing aren’t always how they seem sometimes you think other peoples lives are perfect and that the have it so much better or that they are the coolest people and have a much better personality. But once tou get to know the situation or the person that almost always passes. And I think that also applies to the premiers. It’s just so silly that that’s one over the reasons that I was so upset this year I realize it know, sure our second isn’t the most parting ones but I sure am lucky to have the people that I do in my life. Also there still is six more months maybe the parties will start coming haha. I also think this year was really important I know that the way I treated people didn’t have maybe the BEST intentions behind it, like I was extra nice because I was desperte and wanted people to like me because I felt like everyone hated me. BUT luckily it kinda worked I have my close friends how have always been there and then nice new friends who I have made throughout these past six months. Even thought I didn’t have the best intentions it made me realize that I like being a nice person and not making fun of people or thinking I am superior like I did last year. I have had my problems but I think I am learning a lot this year. I am also starting therapy which will hopefully help with my self worth and people pleasing problems. I hope that you look back at this message and think how stupid I am because I want to have matured and learned and not relayed on other for my worth. I hope you do well on the bac ❤️study hard for the both of us and don’t forget to ask your spe teachers to write a recommendation letter for you earlier since you was to go to Amster*** (hopefully you still want to go) it the best place for people who don’t know exactly what the want to do. By I hope you grow and get better stay nice and keep learning (and also I am taking the acne meds and I hope your face gets better :( ughh…)