A letter from Jul 19, 2024

Dear FutureMe, This year has been an amazing rollercoaster of everything but I've felt that God has been calling me to be closer to him and show others that faith and help them. I have seen him move through my friends and I've wanted that. I pray that when I read this that I will have gotten closer to him and created a habit of reading my Bible praying for my small group and by myself and felt closer to him than ever and allowed him to be in every aspect of my life especially relationships whether it's with my best girl friends or a guy friend or a guy I like, I pray that I'll let God have that relationship and turn in the right direction. I pray that I'll be able to open up about everything to my group whether it's just to my leader or my leader and someone else I trust or the whole group. I hope that my group is still supportive even if they may not like me. I also pray that I won't overthink too much about little things and I pray that I won't care what people think of me and be confident in everything about me. I also hope that I'll be a safe place for someone when they need it and that I'll have friends who are like me and love me for me. I know Jesus wants a relationship with me and I want that too, I want to be more than just a believer and more of a follower and on the narrow road. I want to be able to follow right behind him and get dusty where others around me will see what he's doing. Being uncomfortable and having fear hold me back has been had cause I don't want people to judge me but I know that Jesus tells me to take courage and I pray that I will and be able to overcome the uncomfortable and fear and be confident in myself no matter what area of my life whether it's dance, school, or church or even just making friends with strangers in a place I don't know or never been. I pray that I'll walk with him and be righteous with him and have him call me to others who need a friend that I'll be able to talk to. I pray I'll get better at bible studying or reading my Bible. I've felt that I've been trying to find that lightbulb Christian moment for baptism but I know that not everyone's story is the same. I pray that the boat I was comfortable in won't be anymore and I'll be in the water walking with him. I pray that I'll be able to pray over my friends better to help them and overall be a better daughter of christ. I hope that I will have found who I am and have eyes like Jesus. The key to remain with Jesus is more of the same and the reward is in the routine process. I love you keep being you and not a rude teen. 💗💗