A letter from Jul 09, 2024

Dear FutureMe, It's July 09 2024 and I'm currently sitting in the car on my way back from San Diego, listening to Letter to my 13 Year Old Self by Laufey. While listening to this song it got me thinking that I should write a letter to myself to read by the time I graduate and see how much has changed. The main thing I want to know in 2 years from now is are you still with Alondra? As of now the two of you talk of building a future together and I would like to know if those plans are still in motion. Did you ever tell your parents about dating her or did they ever find out? Do you guys end up going to the same school? Are you guys planning to go to the same college? I really hope we do get to make our plans come true. I love her so much and I just don't see a future without her in my life. Secondly, are you still friends with Toby, Kaien, Mya, and Marcus? You probably will be. Those guys love you so much and you love them. Especially Kaien. She's your best friend and I highly doubt anything can change between you two. They're great friends and people so make sure to continue telling them just how much you appreciate them. Continue being there for each other because they're you're family. Don't let anything stupid seperate you guys. Lastly, and most importantly are you happy with yourself? As of now I know I'm struggling with self acceptance. So I hope you finally learn to love yourself and accept yourself. Don't worry about how much you weight or how pretty you are because there will always be people that love you and that's enough. Don't be too hard on yourself. Not everything is your fault. Go back to being the smart hardworking girl that you are. She's still in there. Let the people around you help you. I hope you're finally able to heal from your inner thoughts and constant stress. You will be okay. You will walk across that stage and you'll make your parents proud. And when you do achieve it do not compare yourself to others. Doesn't matter how many or how little accomplishments you achieved you were able to achieve the most important thing which is living. Set goals for yourself don't give up on yourself. Learn to enjoy life as it is. Just be happy that you're able to live. You keep stressing about the future but please just live in the moment. You are not alone. See you in June 2026.