A letter from Jul 09, 2024

it's 3:14 am & i'm sitting in the kitchen making cookies & bread rolls for my neighbour's son's birthday party on wednesday . this woman does not look my mother in the eye bc she hates how a housewife has more freedom than she does . i am baking treats for a party my mother & i are not invited to purely bc i need a distraction, even at my mother's expense . i keep hurting the people around me to soothe my pain at any cost . sahil's right about me, so is your therapist . i don't think you'd believe me but i really am sorry for the way i keep acting . what i want doesn't matter anymore . i hope you've cut free from me by 2026