I hope you’re happy :)

Dear Future Haniah,
I didn't really eat a proper dinner yesterday. I didn't eat breakfast this morning. I didn't eat lunch at school. I came back and had a decent amount of rice and daal. I didn't wanna have too much though cuz oddly, I wasn't even that hungry. Everyone's on work experience this week. Well, not everyone but you get what I mean. It's actually kinda nice because it's quietish. It's super hot today though. Anyways, I hope you're doing okay. Life kinda sucks right now. I have my speech on Thursday but it's only in front of six people thankfully. You're still socially awkward, have a lot of friends but none at the same time, skipping meals and then randomly eating loads because you keep giving up on the whole losing weight / becoming prettier thing. You still have a moustache. Bro if you're in year 12 still with a gurlstache I'll actually be questioning stuff . . . I hope you're okay if you do. We're dealing with strict parents together :)
You're probably in sixth form right now? Probably, unless you convinced Ami and Abu to let you do an apprenticeship. I wonder what subjects you're taking. Right now, if it were up to you you'd be doing business and English maybe (?) and art. But we all know that's not what you're doing. You're probably doing business, biology and maths. You got your gcse results too! HOW DID YOU DO?! Did you get your 9 in business and English Lang? I hope you did but it's okay if you didn't. I wonder what you got for maths. A 7? An 8 maybe? And computer science? A 6 or 7? I don't know. I hope you got a 7 in CS :) That 8 in the mocks was just. one off tho so it's okay. Whatever you got, I'm proud of you. ARE YOU GOING TO UNI? WHICH ONE? Bro I'm actually so curious what you're gonna be doing.
I hope that by the time you're reading this you have a lot of friends, you're happy with what you're doing and you're confidence and self esteem isn't at rock bottom. I hope you're happy, cuz right now you really aren't. I hope you get better and get the help you need. I hope life is treating you well. I hope you become a better person. You're turning 17 soon. That's mad. You're 15 right now and you barely go outside. I hope you've started talking to people and being less sad all the time. I hope people begin to listen to you and you stop living by your own quote "what's the point in talking if no one wants to listen?" cuz you need to start realising your own importance.
I don't know what your goals are but you can achieve them and I hope that by the end of it (and during it) that you're happy. 
Here's three quotes off handy dandy Pinterest:
Normality is a paved road: it's comfortable to walk, but no flowers grow When nothing goes right, go left (hehehehe)Don't set yourself on fire to keep others warmOld keys won't open new doorsFaith is always greater than fearBe your own piece, when others leave you in pieces 
Okay imma sign off now.

Lots and lots and lots of love and self-hugs from your 15-year-old self - Haniah