A letter from Jun 10, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Here is me from 2 years ago: - Right now I sit in the ladies room from Yescollege waiting for the kids break so I can sneak out, fake my location and go to the library to prepare my presentation about Borderline - Sabrina is not here at school(I asked for 2 times and she would come but not anymore) I wanted to ask her if there was anything I can help with because I helped her about a week ago - Mom and dad don't talk to eachother because they had a fight when dad drunk he said things which mom doesn't like, Rokicha and I find it very toxic but whatevs - I am wearing a long dress, mom got it from some colleague who works in the kitchen, her daughter ordered the dress via Zalando but she didn't like the color so she decided to give it away - I am overthinking about having a Surinamese boyfriend, I am afraid he will never come in 2024 because I think to much about him - At the same time I want to enjoy this time and be happy single - 6 June I treated myself to a solo-date in Hema, I enjoyed myself so much( I had a chocolate cake, healthy bread and Red Bull) then I went to Priya and we talked so much, we hugged, smiled and wow it was AWESOME - My tiktok ideas: 20 life lessons which I will post on my 20th birthday and I want to crochet a rose sweater from which I want to film a bit of the process - I have short hair, a little over my shoulders,like 1cm - Next week I have a photoshoot which will be captured by John - Against my acne I bought the Benzac gel from Kruidvat, it's the fifth day that I am using it and I see a bit of a difference :) - I love listening to Taylor Swift - I am afraid that I won't have friends or a boyfriend on my new school in Rotter*** - I am afraid that I will die alone and never find a man who will love my enthusiasm, character and everything about me - this is what my dream man looks like: taller than me, darker skin than mine, beard,hindu, around my age,lives in The Hague, hopeless romantic,can take a joke, smells awesome, great listener, obsessed with every detail of me and we will be together for over 70 years - I am afraid that rejecting Yuvraj(the Indian guy who I met via Instragram) was a huge mistake and that I will never find love again - I love wearing dresses,not too long tho - I love going to the gym, I can run 30 minutes on the treadmill but I like to do one day running and one day helling 15(the highest) so there is a bit of a challenge each day - It's cold outside and it rains - I am trying to talk more and more - I am not addicted to RedBull and I am happy that even though I have the money, I don't smoke - I am reading a book of Jay Shetty 'Think Like A Monk' and it's quite interesting - If everything goes right then the 1st of July I will be working in Zeeman, which I don't look forward to because some colleagues are very mean and I am afraid that I won't learn how to do a kassa. The only thing I look forward to is that I can buy cream/wool with 20% discount(for the sweater I will make) Now I am sending you this letter from the library! I love you soo much, keep me posted! Lots of love, blessings, kisses, hugs and good vibes from 2024 YOU