A letter from Jun 04, 2024

Dear FutureMe,(actually to my past me) I hope you appeared to the exam ,INI or NEXT whatever it's called then, but the content is Same, Its Medical Knowledge! I hope you did well, But whatever is the result and rank. there's something You wish you should have done or started doing 2yrs ago,i.e Today, these are, 1. I wish I should have learnt more in that internship year, I could have matured/cemented some of facts/concepts That i can never forget in life!!...I had the time.. 2. and I wasted/"used" that in consuming irrelevant things , giving focus, attention and my brain space to irrelevant things, things that not in my control or things that never gonna affect my life. no matter how much pleasure i got from those instant gratifications back then, Its nothing now. Only Regrets, Full of regret, Not fun memories or nostalgic, only purely depressing Regrets. Some of those Irrelevant things include: 1) Random youtube videos ( anything That doesn't involve Study, or direct research for today/tomorrow's impactful decision, like buying guide for a bike) everything else, my so called Important research to save some 100-200 ruppess by buying small small unimpactful things which seemed No its imp to get the best jeans with best offer it will last longer and save a 500rs! man **** that 500, **** that black jean! Its your Confidence that's on the line! 2) Stock analysis, F&O trading (Tukka trading, even if by Watching youtubers or getting knowledge from somewhere) Its nothing, You profited 2200? Congrats but that **** means nothing in your life, your mom earns more than that in a day even if she doesn't go to class. and you too gonna Earn 5x of that in a Day if you succeed this exam!! So shut the **** up about those trading wins or loss it's ******* means nothing in your life.You also know even if you win 80k in a bet or by working for 2 months in a hospital that **** can make no change in your life and You may very well go in to depression now and lose your ******* billions of dollar life! So choose Life, Better Peace of mind, Good and Full ******* Confidence over Money everyday! 3) another thing that impacted my rank is my lack of Routine, Discipline, my work ethic! Why ? because I thought I was weak then I was not reddy to begin, Not enough strong to take bold decisions that will Correct my Routine, My work ethic , to get in to Zone (flow state), To get there Obviously I need to cut out on Everything, I mean everything to achieve that Steady Life where I can study and achieve and remain the flow state or whatever state, likely In My Zone, without any distraction and Worry. 3) Yes, Exactly I was worried rn about my Friends (sai mihir tushar etc) How I am gonna Deny them that I can't come and hang out today evening bcoz I am working to Steady my ship. Boy, You gonna ******* regretful that I didn't take the Courage to Confront to them About my Goals , my work ethic and everything. Its okay they might disagree and make fun of it, that'll prove they are not true friends, But most likely they'll Accept it and Find peace with my non presence and whenever I go to them they'll accept, Yea from most of things I will be cut out and have no clue what they talking about, i might feel not included or enjoying (naah i will enjoy if i do my work and confront them and have fun whenever i want or i am at peace) So Confront them This Week! obviously down the lane Your Goal not gonna change, they might make fun of my effort to result ratio, like even he got better rank than you , ur decisions are weak or blah blah( thats the worst case scenario,) Most likely They'll understand my decisions , my effort and my rank and why i am emphasizing on my career, Its A big Crucial Period of My life. And I mean to SEIZE IT! GIVE MY 1000% to it So That I Can Achieve My Dream Branch in My Dream College (AIIMS BBSR). **** that's How wanna live my life, That's where I can have most of both world. I can learn my brilliant ******* doctors of the country and have a lil time to get in touch with family and these *******( idk why i wrote it first before family and corrected later on) . . . . So The Decision time, It should be That day I changed my Life forever, ( i know its not that one day, rather the fight and steadying the ship everyday...But It should be that day That I decided to Start The Sail, Took an Oath To Steady My ship however Possible, IT SHOULD BE TODAY(4TH JUNE 2024) THAT I TOOK A DECISION (AN OATH) TO GIVE MY 100% EVERYDAY minimum(i.e studying goal of 12hrs if time permit) and If I want to have the best Rank possible GIVE MY 200%( i.e Studying+ Recalling in Brain+ Reviewing Flashcards+ Putting extra effort to Write and Mature the question I got wrong...) EVERYTHING POSSIBLE to achieve that IMPOSSIBLE DREAM that i am currently having. So good luck, The **** i believe in luck, "LUCK Descends Upon those Who Worked RELENTLESS to Get to there Where Luck WILL most likely Descent."-Blue, I BELIEVE in this. **** You achieved it , Go and Watch that ******* Anime!! inner: What if, I couldn't Get that seat. ******* Logically there's SO MUCH CHANCE THAT I COULDN'T ACHIEVE,BUT EVEN IF THERE IS 2-3 way THAT 0.001% (get under AIR 30 with 100k student fighting, and 29 of those seats are reserved for who is already fighting and winning already)...0.001% as VK said and did it, I WOULD WORK and GIVE MY EVERYTHING To Increase that 0.001% to 0.010% then To 0.050%( top 30k)....0.5%( 15 seats for top 3000) and Futher increase that into 1.8%(18 seat for top 1000) to ******* 4% (20 seat for top 500 student) and then I can further add 2-5% with my Calmness, Flow State, My day before and exam day routine...All Add upto a 10% chance of getting AIR 30 and 25% chance to get under AIR 100. And Then Luck Can bestow. even if not I will get top 500 rank for sure. So, Dream It. But WORK FOR IT. TAKE BOLD DECISIONS FOR IT. FIGHT AND WIN EVERY URGE and Instant GRATIFICATION for IT. so that, there's no regret now. ;⁠) Adios, FIGHT and TRIUMPH.