A letter from Jun 02, 2024

June 2, 2024 It's been long. Me and Lance aren't friends anymore, I'm pretty sure. There wasn't exactly a conversation, Just a bunch of his reposts about being tired trying. I've been trying to distract myself. These days, catching up with Angeline and fangirling about our fictional crushes. I finished a book in a day yesterday, "if you could see the sun" by Ann Liang. MY GOD, my first academic rivals to lovers and I LOVE IT SO **** MUCH. AHHH. HENRY LI ILY. THE LOVE STORY WAS SO WELL EXECUTED AND I SLURPED THE BOOK UP AS I'VE BEEN SQUEALING AND SCREAMING DUE TO FLUSTEREDNESS OF THE SCENES HUHUWUHDHUS. I'm planing to read again today, another Ann Liang buk. That girl knows how to write love stories right ehehehe. Anyway, Lance again. We'll be seeing each other in grade 10, cause, classmates. It'll be awkward. Honestly, I'd be lying if I didn't felt it even before his posts. And I'd also be lying if I say I'm not hurt. I am hurt. Well, I was numb when it came. And the realization came May 30, me and nanay buying roasted chicken cause it's her and tatays anniversary. I saw siomai near the shop. And I remember him recommending me the siomai besides the pharmacy and how it was meaty and suited his tastes. That was February when we were at our closest. Before March, where everything fell apart. April, where we were rebuilding. And may, where the bricks we build were falling apart again. And now it's June. It's June 2. Where the bricks are now crumbles. I'm glad it's crumbles now. Because during April, we were only building out friendship again With the same bricks of March. It'll hurt often getting reminded of him. Even yesterday, I went to happy go food court. He made me like the fried noodles there. I treated him coffee there. He treated me chicken balls there, and he recommended me the crab sticks but never did. And the arcade, where we constantly went to karaoke. Even jolibee where we bought mix and match, and his mother treated us too. Our experiences together was great, but the moment my grades started failing because I was focusing on him, It became the foundation of us failing aswell. For I changed. And I became numb to him. I closed him off. I became annoyed by him. I used all the flaws he had that I saw before on aesthetic lenses and transformed them into pet peeves to make me deattached. This was all for the better. He, my first heartbreak . And I, his first. In his post, he said something about hoping to meet each other again but better in the future. It'll be his 17th birthday when this is sent, and I hope we never do. - Elai.