A letter from May 14, 2024

yo. it’s 11:50 pm 14.05.24 for some reason i got watery eyes when i started to write this for no reason at all i got my iphone 15 8 days ago and martin is comin got poland in like a bit over 2 weeks. how is it man, like really did bianka move out? is she still with seba? how’s football going? i scored a goal and got an assist against junior and the next game against suwałki played like sht. got back pain and haven’t gone to the physician yet. how are parents? healthy hopefully 🤞. i hope you forgot about this email and it gets delivered to you cause it would be pretty cool to reflect and remember. sounding poetic and shy lmfao. i’m 15 as you know cause i assume you can still count and i don’t know yet when will i select this email to be sent to you. i kinda wish i had spent my childhood better. like i think it was great but.. i took it for granted. thought it would never end. now i’m just thinking almost every evening how i wish i was little again. got my bike back a couple days ago from the guy that stole it haha i wonder if you remember. i wish i could have a conversation with you like face to face. speak with big me. but this is the only way to kind of have it. i hope you’re doing fine with school and got a bunch of friends, real ones tho. i hope you’re still close with krystian and mati. are they still with their girls? how’s the gym going? haven’t been there in a little bit but i plan on being consistent. time to get personal. just you. any girls? a bit sad that most of my friends have girls and stuff but i don’t. how’s the mental health? remember that one time i was 14 and sht got pretty bad. like i don’t think my mental has ever been worse than that. i’m good now. i think? i weigh like 54kg ish and am 168-169cm. i beg for a growth spurt. like please tell me ur taller. do you have a mustache and the goatee? like the filter on snap y’know. i’m thinking about starting to learn spanish so maybe tell me how that’s going. ***. i just don’t know how to feel. it’s very weird knowing you’ll read this when you’re a couple years older. i’m scared of adulthood. i just want to stay a kid. i don’t think i have a crush now. like maybe a couple girls on my mind? like that one girl from 1c, nikola-maja’s (ruda) friend, maybe lena her friend too. that girl from 2nd grade i think. **** bruh everyone on my mind but am i on anyone’s? i wish writing an essay would be as easy as this. even tho it’s not easy i say what i feel and it just keeps going. i hope ur just happy. doesn’t have to be anything amazing. but be yourself. authentic. don’t let anything change you. i don’t know what to say anymore but i want to get the most out of this. *** i didn’t think i’d be writing this for so long. if you do have a second half. treat her right. tell her you love her, for me. i appreciate you for everything. rest at the end, not in the middle. love ❤️ -dom, 12:30 am, wasilkow home. edit: just saw the previous letter i sent from november 5th 2020. i’ve been out of contact with matt for a pretty long time but played with him for like 4-5 days straight until like 4-6 am like a week ago. pulse if you remember him, he’s still gone no contact. i’m champ 3 in rl, probably gonna get gc soon. hopefully. that’s about it. peace