A letter from May 13, 2024

Dear Future Levaughn, Me, Now. Unless everything has changed drastically in 1 year, everything should be the same but we'll be older and have a job. I want to be a pilot right now, would love to fly fighters but the glasses thing probably stops me from ever attaining that dream. Still going to be some sort of pilot hopefully. I plan on joining the Air Force by December 2024, then hopefully starting a calm car detailing company for a business. I despise math to an extent that no one but me can actually understand. I have plans on suffering in the military to know that I can have a good future for me and then my eventual, HOPEFUL, family. In the mean time when I can't be a pilot is playing flight simulator. Your parents however are dumb as **** and don't do anything to make anyone's life better. Hopefully our eyeballs don't stop us from becoming a pilot. Emotionally, not sure. Content but not really content at all, do I really want to join the AF? NO. But what other options but loans do I have? To grow you need to shrink or something corny like that My World. Boy does this world suck. I don't really have friends except Christopher, Dana and Niyah and it bothers me since I don't really have social anxiety but just suck at making friends. So the best place I feel at home truthfully is at school (ironic). Ms,Bhanot, Ms.Toro, Ms. O, Mr Denton and Valerio, Caruso are all the default places I go to when I'm bored and want someone to talk to. Why? You are a loser and they can't kick you out unless it's important. They don't really judge and actually seem interested and take in the yapp session that I throw out all the time, I absolutely love those people and when I have my huge detailing empire I need to give them money and take them out of Hillcrest Hell. I pretty much live in the guidance suite. What I Do? Absolutely nothing except Flight Sim and talk and talk and talk and talk. Flight Sim before it bores you because a perfect flight is genuinely boring, is the closest thing you have to being a pilot because at the current rate we won't be at the first airline before 30 years old, hopefully that changes soon. Flight sim captures your love and dedication to this whole being a pilot thing perfectly, you spend a freak load of time actually studying and learning how aircraft systems work and self teaching private and instrument licenses. Outside of flight sim it's cars. I really love seeing how the mechanics of this stuff works, if its not that its wanting to rob someone so have a Honda CivivSi and have a sporty first car that you can love and abuse and customize to your own standard and learn about. I also want to get more into the gym and fashion stuff, try to gain a couple pounds, dress nice, have a flock of women fainting when im in their vicinity. People In My Life. Not a lot except the people who I mentioned before and Niyah. You date Niyah and sometimes hate it and other times think it isn't all that bad. Niyah probably shaped you into the great leader you are today with the amount of ******** you had to go through. Outside of Niyah mentally torturing you, Ms Bhanot and your sister are probably the best impacts in your life currently. They both support me and know what I'm capable of even though I cannot actually see it. Outside of being a pilot because it chose me from birth, I want to be a pilot so those two can say they helped. "Oh yeah I had a student who became a pilot" and "My little turd of a brother is a pilot too", I love those people except for when they call me broke and tell me to get a job. My Future. For the future I want to travel and actually get out of my comfort zone, outside of that I want to drive until I've ticked my bucket list cars all off. I want to travel and do things like walk over a rope bridge since they scare the hell out of me, travel so I can eat things I haven't thought of normally. To fully explore all the corners of life and see the true bigger picture outside of myself. A huge one is California, no explanation I just love what I have seen so far. Own a Porsche 911 S or Macan GTS or Cayman Boxster S. A Porsche, something that if others see me they look at me and think I'm a mental model of where they are going to be. I want to be some sort of leader or role model to people someday, I know I wish someone was there from all the ages always guiding me, I want to do that. I want to volunteer in OBAP so black kids can have a model to look at when they think no one like them is a pilot, but it isn't limited to black kids or kids, if I like the Air Force I'll try to be an officer and lead the next generation after me. I want to experience the world, try new things, get over my fears, start a family. I want to be stable and secure. Obviously filthy rich, but if that isn't possible atleast 6 figures. Overall I want my future to be full of new experiences and hopefully shape me to become a better person.