A letter from May 08, 2024

Dear Future Nur, I like you ever since I laid down my eyes on your face even tho I didn't know your name ( I do mean it idk your name but I tell my friends yang pakai spek ) since October 2022. You know I bought 2 anime key chains (Ai Hoshino and Hitori) for you after trial spm because I know you love them. I wanted to see your happy and awkward reactions hahaha (my intention) . At first I thought mrsm gemenceh would join slot account in mrsm tgb with tdk , so I asked aleeyakz to help me. But unfortunately, gmc didn't join us (i can show it to you). My intention, I wanted give you these during your birthday but I can't hangout w anyone at that moment for some reason. I still keep them in my room now. Sorry that I lied to you that I used to like you during our first hang out (I was scared and coward I still like you tho at that time) Yk I thought I had a crush on you as a joke like maybe a little but then nah u have no idea how hard I tried to get over this feelings in my life. I even gaslight myself to not like you. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I LIKE YOU. I like when you are so silly and weird also kinda awkward. I do love your real side tho. I just want to say that I love your eyes and your moles, I really like them. You are actually SOOOO PRETTTTTYY and subahannallah yeah. So I just admired you from afar and praying that you always have a great life. These the only things I could do for now. I truly hope you will success in your life and akhirah. I do love if you tell me about your day, your life, your black cat (her name is mama right?). Idk if the worker of zus wrote a letter to you "fi amanillah" because I want to let you go , I know having feelings on mahram and relationship are haram. That's why I want to let go of you and just keep praying for you. If you are not mine it's actually fine, maybe Allah has a better plan for us. I will trust on Allah's plan. Maybe our meeting is a lesson. Frankly speaking, this is the second future letter I wrote for you, the first one I cancelled on 29 April 2024 because I think I wasn't not ready yet. If you want to see the letter, I can ss it for you, just ask me. I do still like you at this time (may 2024) if u ask me. Last but not least, I want to thank you for becoming one of my academic booster, I'm so grateful. Meeting you make me a better person and open to new perspectives. This letter is simply just a confession from myself because I'm a person who likes confront my true feelings and perspective to people. If you feel uncomfortable or unease and you don't like me , please tell me directly. I don't like cliffhanger and wasting my time. Extra : ARGHHHHHH idk just ball? What to do? Cringe? Nah just real feelings, gotta straight to the point. If u ever show and or ss to other ppl haram a (unless got my permission) https://youtu.be/dQw4w9WgXcQ?si=TFsb4xI7NZQtlj8Y you can reply my message by emailing putribalqisaleeah@gmail.com Sincerely, Aleeah.