A letter from May 05, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I'm 14 while writing this, I don't know if you still remember or if you even want to be reminded, but after that fight that I had and got ******* real bad, I can't really get it off my mind. I really wish there was a way for people to send emails to their past self to give them some word of inspiration or something. It was my first series fight and the girl was bigger than me, but I really wish I hadn't been friends with her in the first place. It's a lot of people that I wish I haven't been friends with, I just hope that when I go back to school on the 14th ain't nobody gone be in my face about it so much. I keep on thinking about it and it's really stressing me out. Even though it's something that can easily be forgot and probably won't see anyone in the future about it, it's hard to forget. Which is surprising for me because I forget stuff so easily. The stress of school, stuff I have at home, and dumb extra stuff like that is ruining my appetite. That's really something hard to deal with since I've been wanting to gain weight for a while since I'm only 100 pounds. You're probably bigger than that now but hopefully we've grown into our body now. It's a lot that I'm trying to let go of and I'm trying to do better, Hopefully by next school year I won't have to worry about going back to Murrah anyways, JPS is a terrible school district. I want to send more messages and have some more for you to read in the future but right now that's the only thing on my mind. Hopefully by the end of the school year my friends won't have a reason to switch up on me or do some dumb stuff. My friends right now: Nadia, Zariyah, Madison, Morgan (even though I haven't talked to her in a while), Yari, me and Eric still cool, and it's probably some other people that I'm still cool with right now but I'm only close with like two people right now. Good luck, I pray for our future, and may God be with you every step of of your life. Don't be like some people and just be impulsive, be better, be smarter, be the bigger person, and be someone that I wish I could be. I know it's probably hard going through life right now since it seems like the older you get the more the world is against you, but try to be nice and try to talk a situation out with people before you jump to running your mouth. If they don't want yo listen, then don't let it get to you, you're too smart, too pretty, and too welcoming to let some dumb stuff like that get the best of you. Like I said at first, take care and be the best person you would want yourself to be.