Coming out, the past and future

Dear FutureMe, Hey i know i just sent a letter, it should have reached you in 2025, this one i don’t think you’ll see until 2026. Things are tough sometimes, i still haven’t come out to mum or any family members really. Not after what happened the first time. I think they’ve forgotten, they think they were right about it “just being a phase” but they weren’t. They just made me understand that they can say they support it all and love the community but they don’t. They made me feel like **** when i came out. Made me think i was wrong, that i shouldn’t feel that way, thay even if i was queer then i have to pick one side, i can’t like girls AND guys that dosent exist. Well they’re wrong and jokes on them because after months of hating myself and thinking i was bad for feeling this, hating the community for no reason i finaly realised i was pan, but even then that’s just the label that fits best. Just queer is fine. Point is, im fruitier then before so jokes on them. I’m glad my partner supports me, i was terrified he wouldn’t at first, i didn’t know him that well yet but 2 years later and he tries to learn every chance he gets, if he doesn’t understand something he listens, he actually accepts me. I hope you have the courage to tell them one day. I can’t now, not for awhile not until i’ve moved out at least. But i hope you can. Don’t forget, Grandma voted for *** marriage you can tell her she supports it, don’t tell pop tho he voted no “bEcAuSE wHaT wiLL tHe cHuRcH tHiNk?” the church won’t know my guy just lie if they ask, you’ve lied to them before. Also i have my suspicions that Aunty is or was a little queer when she was younger, could be that or could be the hippy-ness either way i know her and uncle would support us, but i don’t want to tell her yet because she might let it slip im not sure. This is getting long and i know you probably don’t want to read this much, so i’ll end it here. Get therapy <3 From 18 year old you PS. You’ll probably hate me a bit for choosing Feb 5th for the date you’ll receive this, but as much as i hate it too it’s something we need to remember, im sorry.