myself and I

Dear FutureMe, 
i'm writing this without knowing what i'm gonna say but i'll just keep going i'm really tired of being miserable i'm so tired i hate myself i hate everything around me i love my friends but i hate them at the same time like wtff i'm saying i can't live like that anymore i should change my whole existence my personality my body and my mind idk everything. i don't know if i want to read this or not and when should i read it but ik that i have to continue writing it.  am i still in kuwait? is my best friend still with me? do i love myself? "do my dad love me?" ahh that's hit different how's my brothers? don't forget my "your" mother.. i love her i really wish if i had died instead of her ahhhh i'm so tired of myself and my life. i'm in the last year of high school and i don't know where i will be while reading this.i will definitely miss these days and my high school years my friends and teachers.. i will just stop here so i don't cry lol. i hope everything goes well.