A letter from Mar 13, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Dear future me, I hope you are really happy now. I hope that you have more of the NO years than you did before. I hope you now put yourself first not for selfish reasons but because your mental state matters too. I hope you’re more independent now because it is through independence that the world allows you to make your own decisions no matter how good you already are at decision making. I hope your smile is more genuine and I hope you no longer over explain yourself on the days when you don’t show it. I hope you no longer drain yourself describing you to the world because it will never get to understand who you are but you. Let it call you boring, it is okay. I hope you speak more about the things that make you angry rather than holding them back with excuses of not wanting to hurt or cause awkward situations with those around you. I hope you pray more because the only option that was presented to you when you resorted to earthly healing was suicide. I hope people listen and respect you without you first shouting. I hope you’re enjoying those small moments that make your heart smile. I hope you don’t regret any decision you have made so far. I hope you have understanding people you talk to in case of any perturbed feelings. Dear future me, I pray you’re happy now.