A letter from Mar 09, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hi Cloey (whatever age you are) I’m currently 19 and helplessly in love. Yes in love, and I haven’t even kissed this boy yet. Brooks, ohhh where do I even start. I know you haven’t forgotten a soul like that so I don’t need to say much to remind you of his goodness. Anyway, three days ago I went to a concert with Brooks, his friend Graham, and Logan. It was so much fun. I even had the privilege of meeting some of his other best friends after. They’re all so great, they’re the kind of people you feel like you’ve known for your whole life. I won’t forget that night and how I felt leaving, he wrote me a letter. A letter that answered a couple questions of mine. The biggest one, “How does Brooks see me?” Well he said he saw Jesus’s love through me, and that I radiate light. Does it get much better than that? This seriously might be the most intentional, most special letter a human has ever wrote for me. He also said I have gentle blue eyes… needless to say I cried…. Aaaaaaalot. He also got me the most special gift. A poster that holds the lyrics of our song. “Would that I” In his words exact, “you and the song Would that I are synonymous to me.” How do I even cope with this feeling? He’s leaving for two years, two whole years. Two summers, two winters, two birthdays. Two whole years, after a night like that I’m left feeling kind of empty. Empty because I know how good we could be together, I’d like to believe he knows it too. But timing isn’t in our favor right now so I have to swallow the idea that we could be in love right now. I feel like I’m in a movie, I FEEL LIKE IM IN A MOVIE!!!! Oh my gosh. I had a conversation with God a couple months ago and this was the prayer, “God, as soon as I have a moment with a boy that makes me say, “I feel like I’m in a movie”that’s how I’ll know he’s the one…” Is this a coincidence? Or is God just crazy cool. God if this boy isn’t my husband, I’m dying alone. Future Cloey, you better tell Brooks you love him before it’s too late. Best of luck sis💗 -2024 19 year old Cloey