A letter from Mar 07, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hi you, Happy Birthday! You have a fully developed brain now, use it woman. Intellectually I believe you're on path, but even if you aren't, you'll be okay because life happens that way. You've been losing your friends a lot, people you considered family were lost overnight. I hope the remaining ones you had are still with you now. You need some new friends as well, you're 24 year old when you wrote this and sometimes found it hard to even hangout with existing friends. I'm not sure if this is like a PTSD behavior or something but if you can, sort this out. I hope you'll give dating a go. Not because you need a companion, but because having one would be nice. I'm sure you'd have added 2 places to your travelled list by now, keep it up! Nr and Nv are no longer a part of your life, they never will be. So the sudden flashbacks, regardless of good and bad times, try to calmly fade them away. It's just been too long. Same with So and Sh, yes you loved them with all your heart, but i guess thats what we get for loving people with all your heart. But don't let that stop you, I think the world needs all the love we can give. So as much as it hurts, just keep trying, cuz honestly, you don't regret anything. You are who you are because of your time with them. You know, I understand men don't approach you and have never did, but thats okay. Let life wire its way into directing destiny to what you deserve, but no matter how desperate, never ever let yourself be in as much pain as you were in with your 2 relationships. Invest in yourself, solidarity is actually going pretty well as of now. Look, I love you. Not completely but I'm trying, I'm hoping by the time you read this we'd have progress. As impatient as we are, we gotta let some loose. Buy a nice dress for yourself, I hope we tried a whacky hairstyle on your 24th so that your haircut on the 25th can be the safe elegant one. Oh and hopefully you've had a dermatologist by then. Stay true to yourself, listen to the instincts (even if they're always negative, don't shut it away). Leave if you're hurting anyone. Things getting difficult is not a sign to give up, just keep it going and you'll see the light. You're 23rd mind and soul