A letter from Mar 03, 2024

hello cess! its cess here from 2023, i wrote this in a whim just because i saw it on tiktok and i thought maybe i should do it? despite knowing well i might remember this and wait for the day this letter comes^^' but yea, i dont want to mention it but i know you might remember that this day marks as one month since that happened. well, now you're hurting and its really tough. days comes by and you think you're okay and right now the vision of being "fully healed" from it seems a bit blurry. i know you'll remember every single thing you felt in those times and how unfair it was for you to be the only one sinking in this boat. so, cess in the future, i hope you're doing so well. i hope you'll cry because you're happy and not because you're compromising again for a person that can't do the same to you. i hope you'll laugh freely and not feel shame with your smile because you see yourself like how you view others. i hope songs will bring you comfort instead of bad memories you hope to forget. i hope the streets in your house becomes just another place you know and not an indication that they were there. i hope every little thing you own is all about you and not because it reminded you of their existence. i hope you're choosing yourself everyday as much as you did with other people. i hope you're really happy now, cess. im sorry that i cant say when you'll be fully healed but im trying and i know in the future you'll find love within you and find the love that it is truly meant for you. aside that, i hope you reached your dreams. graduating with magna *** laude and with flying colors. i hope you're good with makeup now and got tons of money hehe, and also i hope we found our best fashion style for us huhu, make new friends too! have fun! live your life, cess. there's so much more than a guy who broke your heart years ago. the world didn't end just because of him. your life just started again since then:') people are with you, don't forget that. i know you're hoping for their karma and having that all too well moments and i assure you, that will happen. tell me in the future oki i need the tea hehe you're remarkable, you're that love they wished and it will hurt them because they let you slipped away. trust me. they all come back. they all go through that. above anything else, i hope you can forgive them someday. i hope you'll find that strength to be with peace in things and i know you didn't deserve that. you're stronger than before and the only validation you will need is yourself. okay? you got this. of course you got this. wherever you are, i know you did it. and im pretty sure we're so much prettier than years ago hehe be confident!!! you are pretty, you're a precious human being. everyone knows that and you need to know that too. see you cess, i dont like goodbyes you know that, thank you for everything and for the next things i will experience. love is still there, because you exist. you're still here, princess;