A letter from Mar 01, 2024

Dear Future Me, Did we do it? Did we finally go back to our hometown just like we dreamed? It must have been hard if you did. And if you did, I'm proud of you- all the way from back here. If you haven't made it, I'm severely disappointed in you. You know how much this meant to us, and how rare this chance is. You can't be this spoiled all the time. Right now, I'm stuck. I'm not motivated to learn the language needed at all and I'm the most depressed I've ever been. I don't really know how to climb out of this hole I've dug for myself, but I figured that writing this sort of letter would be a convoluted way of holding myself accountable. I guess? The plane tickets will be booked for August, so I've heard. Just in case, I'll set the date of this letter for New Year's next year. No matter how it ends up, can you say hi to Nana and Shizuku? I'm too scared to talk to them right now, since I don't know if they think I'm a friend like I think they are. But at least you'll actually be able to speak to them if all goes well. In the meantime, I'll do my best to make sure that this better version of me exists by this time. Study hard, go for a walk. And definitely cherish your friends. I don't talk to them much now, but I'm trying. All my love and support, Yourself