A letter from February 26th, 2024

Dear future me I feel sharthed and sad 😭 most of the time. I always thought high school was going to be a big change.  I would have so much fun, but now I wish I could do online classes because I feel like I don't belong.  I have no friends, and I am always alone.   Being 15  I feel like my whole life is ruined because people in my school see me as ugly, I see how people talk about me and give me weird eyes and don't want to even sit with me, has made me lose the confidence I had in myself, I am not even able to present in class without staggering. It hurts to hear people make fun of me, stare, or make comments about me being fat and ugly even though I already know it but you know what hurts the most is that I have become my enemy by beginning to believe and say I am ugly to the extent that I am not good at connecting with new people and people who make an effort to talk to me because I don't know what to say and they end up losing interest. I know beauty lies inside but I still can't control my emotions, maybe because I am young I understand but can't work on it. I move to this place where I call home leaving my greatest friend,s behind yet I have no one to call my own. I am working hard to lose some weight not because I want to impress anyone but to have confidence in myself, I am going to work hard to do what is best and makes me happy 😊  not what other people may,t think of me, I am going to enjoy the rest of my high school years with friends or without friends. Two years from now when I graduate from high school I hope I will have achieved this teen dream of mine, and look back at it and smile 😊