A letter from Feb 04, 2024

Dear Future Self, Second semester started already. I admit that I was quite nervous especially after seeing the class syllabus. Perhaps, I am perceiving it as a kind of tough and it actually is. So much has change the day after I turned eighteen, like A LOT. It is a mix of enjoyable and somewhat disappointing that I did not get a chance to fulfill my previous bucket list that I made for myself before I turned eighteen and it sucks since I do not feel motivated doing those things that I planned and that day by day, I was losing the motivation to enjoy the things that I usually do and it ******* sucks. Not to mention that I lost quite a lot of friends last year and I was aware that some friendships are not really for me and that specific individuals because it does not mean that when you get closer to the person you just met, you can call them as your friend and that you would expose them the secrets that you had. I was lucky anyway since I have this two friends that makes me feel home and safe, that they will not judge me for being who I am. I hope that you will see this letter and that I wanted to tell you that I was proud of you for being so strong and that I love you so much.