A letter from Jan 30, 2024

Dear me, Ok so this maybe really weird for you to read and it’s kinda like an impulse feeling. and I have felt this feeling before but it’s kinda random. anyway let me get to the point, I have always wanted the “best friends to lovers” type of romance. that’s sorta what i’ve always dreamed of. like literally, I dream of it every night and day. but anyway the closest thing/person I have to that is wils. I know this is probably gross and disturbing to you (unless you still sorta like him or are dating him) but I kinda have to ask and talk about it. I love wils as a friend bc he’s so funny, and crazy, and fun, but I feel like it would be amazing if we were really good friends and then we both loved each other and then we started dating. I know this is weird and crazy. and I know it probably never happens but I wish it would. also, I have felt this feeling before, and he is an excerpt from my journal: “ I kinda like Wils. idk. I keep dreaming and daydreaming about him, and I imagine us together. I think of us becoming best friends like really close and hanging out a lot especially at his house. I become friends with his mom too. I imagine me hanging out at his house almost every day and sometimes carpooling. And then one day he or I kisses me/him and then we start dating. this is either in the end of night or beginning of 10th. We date forever having the best friendship, hang out all the time, and playing Fortnite. And I can imagine the first time we tell everyone we are dating, and when him and his friends are playing video games, and I kiss him and leave and listen, and and they’re all hyping him up and going crazy. I can imagine us on the hammock, staring at the stars and each other. I can just imagine it being so perfect, but most of all us having the greatest friendship. I just wish and hope it would come true. It would be perfect.” -december 17, 2023. I think this is pretty crazy and weird but also perfect and amazing. I want this to happen and I think about it a lot. I just want to have that sort of relationship, it doesn’t have to be w wils. I just dream of it every day and I pray that this would happen. so idk. it probably won’t be wils, and that’s fine, but he’s all I can think of right now. I just want to have that relationship more than anything. I pretty much am just a hopeless romantic but i’m only in 8th grade so I have hope. I just wanted to send you this letter to see if we have accomplished this yet or if we are still dreaming and hoping for it. let me know!! (I didn’t know when to set the date for so I decided to do beginning of 10th bc earlier in the letter I mention that time) From, hopeless romantic, past you