A letter from Jan 09, 2024

Dear 18 year old me, I just read a letter from 14 year old us, she would be proud of me now. I hope you’re okay. I’ve kind of found us again, but sometimes it can still be rough. But again, you won’t dissapoint me if you’re not okay, i am still proud that you’re reading this letter, because there was a time that we didn’t think we would make it to 16. I am 16 now, so I believe we can make it till 18 also. Also 14 year old us wanted us to have better friends, a better job, no cat-allergy, better grades and that we are happy and healthy. At 16 I do have better friends, job and grades. I do however still have a cat-allergy, but that’s okay. I feel way more happy than at 14. Actually, I am always happy when I am not in the same room as our sister. I don’t really like her anymore (if I ever did the last decade). I am also way more healthy, because I don’t live in the same house as a cat anymore. We still miss storm but he has a nice home :) unfortunately I am not rich. Now for 18 year old me: I hope you’re even more happy than I am now. I hope that you found a study that you like, and i kind of hope that you don’t live at home anymore, because I love my parents and my family, but I believe you deserve a less stressful situation at home. I still hope that you’re rich. I also kind of hope you’re a rockstar, but maybe it’s a tiny bit unrealistic. Keep in mind that 14 and 16 year old you are rooting for you and are proud of you. You won’t disappoint us, whatever happens. I hope you’re still friends with M. She’s your best friend I think. I also hope you’re still friends with C, and I hope that she’s all right also. Don’t forget our rule: if someone takes energy you have to drop them, if someone gives energy, keep them. It works. And I’ve found that it also works with places. I stopped with volleybal because of it and it was the best decision ever. It’s the same with my old job at J. If someone else is reading this (I posted this on public): you can do it. Even though it’s hard. You can do it. 13 year old me didn’t think I would be still alive right now, but I am. And I am so glad. Living is great, even if you’re life isn’t. There are so many beautiful things that you can discover. There are songs that will be your new favourites, you will meet friends that you’ll love. It’s okay. And if it’s not, it will be. I promise you. Bye, 16 year old