A letter from Jan 07, 2024

perennial in the past months of not talking with each other — the feeling of longingness dagger my chest every time i visit our happy memories in my hidden box, i've been thinking if i could just throw it away or give it back to you... i unhinged my feelings every time i think of you in every little things that i do. i don't wanna forget your face, i'm not ready yet. i don't wanna forget your voice, i wish i could listen to it, again. i don't wanna forget how you cared about me even if it's hurt me, i'd love it. i love it when your mad at me whenever i made mistakes, i missed you! i miss the feeling when we both blubbered because we don't wanna lose our relationship, but we have to. i miss those letters, the unprepared one was my favorite, the letter with pictures of you with my white horse, the hand written of an architect which is ALL capslock, i missed all of it. i missed how we laugh when i made stupid things even if i actually knew it. i missed our travels together, our conversation about life, about our future wedding and such. i missed how you comfort me in terms of family issues i missed how annoyed you are whenever i stepped into your shoes. i missed our scoot days... i missed your hugs whenever i'm washing dishes i missed how we play together online games i missed our kisses and hugs every morning i missed our bonding together with graham i missed how you treat me like a princess every morning you'll woke up early and buy pandesal haha i missed our hiking activity i missed our eye contacts and your eyes were always serious i missed cooking together i missed your smell (this is one of my favorite) you always say na your perfume was 100php only yet your smell's so good! i missed the efforts that you gave. i missed everything about you. the first person who accept who I am the first person who made me feel loved the only person that I gave all my trust i'm counting on about your promise, — i guess, we’re both ready to face each other and laugh about what we've done. in that date, May 14, 2026 you'll find me again the way destiny finds us both